I never told you...

I'd forgotten that I made a blogger account many months ago and decided this would be the perfect place to release my thoughts. Recently, my dreams have been haunting me. Not in the literal sense, of course, but I find my mind wandering into deeper, darker thoughts. I'm not letting it completely interrupt my happiness but I do feel a bit oppressed by it. How do you completely let go of something that you know for a fact just isn't there anymore? Or, more descriptively, how do you stop wanting somebody to be with you? I was okay, I thought, but as usual, these thoughts come back to succumb my mind. It's kind of antagonizing. If I could make it stop hurting, I would in a heartbeat, but of course, as always, it isn't that simple and never will be. On the brighter side, school is starting soon and I know all of the work I'll be doing will keep my mind off of certain things...hopefully. I saw twilight eclipse last night for my first time and I actually really liked it. It was a great movie, especially when Edward proposed to Bella...haha, I know, I'm a softey! Anyway, life is rolling along and I'm simply riding the waves making sure they don't crash down on me...a constant battle, but a good one at that. I suppose it's supposed to hurt, though. I mean, why wouldn't it? You find yourself completely in love and happy..it's a hard thing to let go of. I guess listening to Colbie Callait's "I never told you" doesn't make it any easier for me to stop hurting. Duh. I mean, the lyrics kind of sort of remind me of everything I wish I still had, besides for the "I miss your blue eyes" part. I don't think I've ever had a boyfriend with blue eyes...hmmm...haha I'm ranting. Anyway, I recently updated my deviant art. If you just so happen to stumble upon this blog, you can find me there, too. www.laurenchristine.deviantart.com

Warmly,

Lauren Christine.<3